It occurred to me today.
I've never had to sacrifice my life
In any meaningful way.
Not once.
Until now.
I grew up
with married parents
who gave me everything
who love me no matter what.
An older brother who asked for me.
A pink baby
He announced.
A younger sister to protect.
Storybook childhood
Upper middle class
Two houses
Private education
A car
A pony
First choice college
First choice medical school
First choice residency program
The man of my dreams.
A husband who pushes me to pursue my goals.
Who never once objected to my aspirations.
A man who loves me for who I am
and for who I want to be.
I'm sitting here
looking out the window.
Thinking about how fortunate I have been
How lucky I have been
How very, very blessed.
I've never in my life had to sacrifice.
I've never been told
you can't
you won't
you shouldn't
This deployment is a sacrifice.
I miss him.
But, I think it's my turn.
